Relatable. I answered a phone call about work and then when I hung up I started hyperventilating and then had to put my head down for a few minutes. Rest of the day was chillin.

Oh yeah, I definitely “forgot” it accidentally

What the fuck?? How common is this because it is literally me??? I apologize so much and a lot of people don’t know what the fuck I’m apologizing for. Basically I’m apologizing for existing.

I have a good job too! I mean, every job will have its issues, even good ones (mine is mostly with my supervisor), but the unicorns do exist!

Is that an obvious plant logo lol

Worth it

I picked up exercising pretty consistently since last March. I had never been able to do that so consistently before.

I honestly did it because people said exercise is supposed to improve mental health.

Guess what it didn’t do?

Yup, you guessed it. I also hate it almost every single time I do it. The one time I randomly really enjoyed my exercise routine I was in a bizarrely good mood already before I even started exercising that day. I felt so good like I was on drugs or something.

Guess what it did instead?

Gave me chronic pain and fatigue that goes away if I skip my exercise routine.

There are just so many variables and ways to respond and interact that I manage to select the wrong ones all the time. In an ideal situation, I would stop and weigh the options of every single thing I do and say at any given moment in order to figure out the correct course of action. But that just isn’t feasible. And I never realize when I’m supposed to stop and think until it’s too late.

Like today, I wanted to keep my coworker informed about some case she will have to deal with in the morning. So I sent her a long text after work. But that was wrong and bad because it was bothering someone with a life at home. It was only hours later that I realized that I had an alternative. I could have handwritten out a letter on the case and stuck it where she would see instead of being invasive and bothersome and inconsiderate outside of the workplace.

I have learned some things over time, but sadly there are just an infinite number of scenarios and things and ways I’m supposed to interact and I just can’t figure them all out.

How do I become a better person and stop doing it? I find I am constantly making mistakes and bothering people. I think a solution to this would be to stop interacting with people as a whole so my presence isn’t harming anyone, but that often isn’t really feasible. Like at work I often have to interact with people to do my job for example. Occasionally I have thought about quitting to save people from me, but then I wouldn’t know how to pay my bills. And idk that I’d want to be homeless.

Does babby come out of man’s pee hole or poop hole